I was cyncically optimistic 8 years ago.

My optimism has been completely drained. I don’t care anymore.

I don’t even really hate or fear, I just kind of nothing and fake it on the outside.

Does it though? I have had a real hard time giving a shit about space fir a while now goven Musk’s musk is tainting it.

Its how conservatism works.

If it makes you feel uncomfortable, sweep it under the rug and ignore it. Nothing is allowed to be bad or need fixing, nothing is allowed to change or be different, thats all scary.