Bro, there’s something else out there. Idk what it is but I made contact with it several years ago after practicing my own version of CE5. Idk if that gives you hope but of you focus on love and get into deep meditative state its possible to make contact with (what i believe to be) a non human intelligence. I think they are non human because of their appearance, but I could be wrong. I could be wrong about all of it, but for me it was a real experience. Don’t close your mind. Its a giant ass universe and anything is possible. But I firmly believe there is a nonhuman intelligence that will gladly interact with us if we reach out to them.
You make a good point, but benzos can reduce productivity, which is why a lot of us turn to pain killers. I stay far away from pain killers because they are a really bad trap thats almost impossible to get out of. But like you said, anyone using drugs to cope is also a drug addict. But pretty much all drug addicts are doing it for the same reason, to cope with their life or try to run from their pain. People don’t just become drug addicts, there is usually something that pushes them into it (like the stress of their job).