That’s why I consider being alive as irrational for a conscious being. Suffering will always outweigh good emotions so we should come to the conclusion that not being alive is beneficial for our wellbeing. Somehow the majority of us decides to rather endure pain than end our existence.
In the darkness that is existence there can still be beacons of light.
Ending one’s existence is the end of all of that. No more light, no more dark, just nothing.
I stick around due to those beacons of light in the dark and honestly the more time goes on the more I realize that there’s actually quite a lot of light to be had.
Yeah work sucks for 10 hours a day, but that time allows me to enjoy my hobbies.
The pleasure of a newly painted miniature, the bliss of hiking a new trail, the exhilaration of biking further and faster than I did before, finding new places and things to photograph.
Enjoying a nap in the shade of tree on a lightly windy day, watching the river flow by while I forget to cast my line, watching the clouds flit through the sky while laying in the grass.
If you end it all the only thing left behind is the pain for those who knew you. The gap left in their lives caused by your absence.
Sometimes their big gaps: lovers, friends, coworkers. Sometimes their small: the regular who always stops by, the person with the cool hair you see sometimes, the person who you talked to on the bus that day who you still sometimes see. But the gaps are still there.
I’ve known a lot of people who have taken their own life, the lives of others, and had their lives taken by other people. Those gaps will always be there.
Stick around, look to the outside world, and reach out. There is light in the world if you look for it, don’t let the darkness that dominates the social media landscape be all that you see.
The pleasure of a newly painted miniature, the bliss of hiking a new trail, the exhilaration of biking further and faster than I did before, finding new places and things to photograph.
These 2 things drew my eye, as I work 8 hours a day and I also paint minis. I often feel like I don’t have enough time to do all the things I want to do. How much mini painting do you do given that you also hike, bike, and photograph? In addition to mini painting I also read, bike (city biking), and play video games.
I never feel like I spend enough time doing my hobbies and I don’t even have kids or other major obligations outside of work. I suppose I should count my blessings as I really enjoy my job.
Not as much painting as I’d like but since I got diagnosed with ADHD and started taking meds for it my ability to budget time has exploded.
I can actually start things with the confidence of being able to do them. It was life changing for both my mental and physical health.
I don’t paint minis everyday, more like a day or 2 per week (we’ve all got a pile of shame) and the other things are also usually a day or 2 per week. Photography gets sprinkled into most things though.
No kids here either which is pretty nice mostly, but I do spend sometime with the niece and nephew. They usually dig me explaining things to them about how things work or how things came to be etc. Or hell even just bouncing ideas around and looking up history topics, they’re pretty fun but a handful when I see them.
I’ll have to join those communities for sure, when I first hopped over here I couldn’t find much for those things and I’m going to share some for sure there. I’ve shared some of my others in other communities using some of my alt accounts so I’ll probably share those links there as well.
I don’t have much trouble budgeting time, but I do find it much more satisfying to finish several small miniatures than to paint something large over a longer time. I’m glad your meds are working for you, and you can have an easier time with everything!
I’m the same with painting minis - one or two days a week. And yes, my pile of shame opportunity grows faster than I can diminish it. Every once in a while I decide to not buy any more figures until I’ve reduced it to some point. I think it’s time for that again - no new figures starting from August until Christmas.
There’s an afterlife for every single one of us. Whether it’s something “you” can perceive is an entirely different proposition. Judgment in the after life is where all the anxiety sets in… The idea that we’ll be caste once again, but “yodo” fuck it I’m a good dude and damn a hell.
That’s why I consider being alive as irrational for a conscious being. Suffering will always outweigh good emotions so we should come to the conclusion that not being alive is beneficial for our wellbeing. Somehow the majority of us decides to rather endure pain than end our existence.
In the darkness that is existence there can still be beacons of light.
Ending one’s existence is the end of all of that. No more light, no more dark, just nothing.
I stick around due to those beacons of light in the dark and honestly the more time goes on the more I realize that there’s actually quite a lot of light to be had.
Yeah work sucks for 10 hours a day, but that time allows me to enjoy my hobbies.
The pleasure of a newly painted miniature, the bliss of hiking a new trail, the exhilaration of biking further and faster than I did before, finding new places and things to photograph.
Enjoying a nap in the shade of tree on a lightly windy day, watching the river flow by while I forget to cast my line, watching the clouds flit through the sky while laying in the grass.
If you end it all the only thing left behind is the pain for those who knew you. The gap left in their lives caused by your absence.
Sometimes their big gaps: lovers, friends, coworkers. Sometimes their small: the regular who always stops by, the person with the cool hair you see sometimes, the person who you talked to on the bus that day who you still sometimes see. But the gaps are still there.
I’ve known a lot of people who have taken their own life, the lives of others, and had their lives taken by other people. Those gaps will always be there.
Stick around, look to the outside world, and reach out. There is light in the world if you look for it, don’t let the darkness that dominates the social media landscape be all that you see.
Love this.
These 2 things drew my eye, as I work 8 hours a day and I also paint minis. I often feel like I don’t have enough time to do all the things I want to do. How much mini painting do you do given that you also hike, bike, and photograph? In addition to mini painting I also read, bike (city biking), and play video games.
I never feel like I spend enough time doing my hobbies and I don’t even have kids or other major obligations outside of work. I suppose I should count my blessings as I really enjoy my job.
PS: I’d love to see some of your minis, maybe you can post some on [email protected] or [email protected] or something?
Not as much painting as I’d like but since I got diagnosed with ADHD and started taking meds for it my ability to budget time has exploded.
I can actually start things with the confidence of being able to do them. It was life changing for both my mental and physical health.
I don’t paint minis everyday, more like a day or 2 per week (we’ve all got a pile of shame) and the other things are also usually a day or 2 per week. Photography gets sprinkled into most things though.
No kids here either which is pretty nice mostly, but I do spend sometime with the niece and nephew. They usually dig me explaining things to them about how things work or how things came to be etc. Or hell even just bouncing ideas around and looking up history topics, they’re pretty fun but a handful when I see them.
I’ll have to join those communities for sure, when I first hopped over here I couldn’t find much for those things and I’m going to share some for sure there. I’ve shared some of my others in other communities using some of my alt accounts so I’ll probably share those links there as well.
Thank you for the suggestion.
I don’t have much trouble budgeting time, but I do find it much more satisfying to finish several small miniatures than to paint something large over a longer time. I’m glad your meds are working for you, and you can have an easier time with everything!
I’m the same with painting minis - one or two days a week. And yes, my pile of
shameopportunity grows faster than I can diminish it. Every once in a while I decide to not buy any more figures until I’ve reduced it to some point. I think it’s time for that again - no new figures starting from August until Christmas.Looking forward to seeing what you post!
Youre a descriptive writer. I’m down to read one of your novels, if you ever choose to write one.
Thank you, I’ve been working on and off again on various story ideas for awhile now.
One issue I’m having though is they’re being little plot bunnies.
Basically I’ll have 6 plot ideas, start 2, and have 8 plot ideas instead of 4.
It’s this or nothing at all. I wish I was one of the lunatics believing in an afterlife.
There’s an afterlife for every single one of us. Whether it’s something “you” can perceive is an entirely different proposition. Judgment in the after life is where all the anxiety sets in… The idea that we’ll be caste once again, but “yodo” fuck it I’m a good dude and damn a hell.