First time I’ve been feeling lonely this year, ik this is in stark contrast with the time of the year but I wasn’t able to perform in my school annual function (I really wanted to) and for some reason I have been feeling lonely since, what do you do when you feel like this?
At under no circumstances allow the thought machine to wonder alone during a silent moment. Constantly drown it under a huge pile of information so that it can’t ever go very far, otherwise it will look for a vein of negative emotions and dig deep inside.
Stop posting, ME, aha. Thats a dangerous, treacherous path, internet friend. Can I ask what stimuli makes you want to information-overload yourself to numb yourself to?
I suffer from chronic depression.
Ah k. Been there :(
If you’d indulge me for a moment, I wonder what that means for you more situationally, like
do you find most challenging in your life currently (besides yourself/depression)?
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Oh, It’s been like this since I was a teenager due to an extremely shitty household, bullying and being handicaped. Just Finished my master in language didactics this year and I’ve been looking for a job for few months now, but since the well seems to be dried up since I started my studies I plan to change my career and go for the health sector, It’s 2 more years of studying but at least there will be a job waiting for me at the end. Yeah, It’s a bummer but eh…it’s life. The constant information overload wasn’t all bad, I am proficient in 3 languages (English isn’t my native language btw) and learning my 4th. I also dabble with programming an AIs so I can do some freelance.
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The biggest challenge in my life is the constant self-loathing and sever lack of motivation towards anything. I can spend weeks if not months not doing anything productive and it feeds the self-loathing even more.
What pushes me to fight these feelings and try to improve my situation is my niece . Since her birth 3 years ago, I felt a new strength. I want to see her grow and be the best uncle she could have.
I wish you luck on your quest to live a fulfilling life.
Really hope you find something meaningful that you love.
Thanks !
So, no to introspection? Wundt-ering around your own mind?
Edit: The giant Grof was hit in one eye by a stone, and that eye turned inward so that it looked into his mind, and he died of what he saw there. -Cyrin